If you’d asked me a year ago, I would’ve told you Nina and I were close.
She’s 25 now. Moved out at 18. Independent, driven. I was proud. We stayed in touch—Sunday dinners, birthdays, movie nights.
Then the visits stopped.
First, it was Richard’s birthday. She called the day before: “Work’s crazy, Mom. I can’t make it.”
Understandable. Life happens.
Then she missed my birthday. Called the next day, saying she wasn’t feeling well and didn’t want to risk getting me sick. Her voice sounded distant, off somehow—like she was trying to sound okay, but wasn’t.
By Thanksgiving, the excuses stacked up. I started asking directly.
“Is everything alright?” I asked.
“Yeah, just busy,” she’d insist.
But I knew something was wrong. Her tone wasn’t the same. She was pulling away.
“She’s growing up,” Richard said. “Let her.”
But it didn’t feel like growth. It felt like loss. Something was broken.
Then, last week, I saw her—by chance, in the grocery store. She looked good. Healthy. Not like someone struggling. Just someone avoiding me.
She spotted me and gave a nervous smile. “Hi, Mom.”
“I’ve been calling…” I began.
“I know,” she said quickly. “I’ve been meaning to—”
“Not here,” I said quietly.
Outside, I gently pressed her. “Please. Tell me what’s going on.”
She hesitated. “It’s not you, Mom.”
“Then what?”
“It’s Richard,” she said, barely audible.
She told me about a visit last year—one I barely remembered—when I stepped out briefly.
Richard had found her diary and read it out loud, mocking her. Laughing. Calling her dramatic.
Making light of her miscarriage. Her pain.
I felt sick. I hadn’t known. I wasn’t there.
“I felt humiliated. Unsafe,” she said. “He made me feel like I didn’t matter. Like I was just something to be ridiculed.”
She never told me. Didn’t want to make me choose. Didn’t think I’d choose her.
“I didn’t want to believe you saw it and let it happen,” she said. “But I couldn’t come back after that.”
That night, after Richard fell asleep, I packed a bag and left. Filed for divorce at sunrise.
He texted. I didn’t respond. There was nothing left to say.
I cleaned the house of him. Photos, clothes, wine—gone. I sold it not long after. That house had never truly been ours—not while he lived in it.
Two weeks later, I stood at Nina’s door with a key lime pie and a shaking heart.
“Mom?” she said, surprised.
“I left him,” I told her. “It’s over. I didn’t know what he did, but I do now. And I’m so sorry.”
She stared at me. “I thought you’d pick him.”
“I already did once. I won’t again.”
Her eyes brimmed with tears.
“I missed you, Mom.”
“Oh honey. I’ve missed you more.”
She didn’t move back in, but we made new promises—Sunday dinners, Wednesday takeout, Saturday baking. Slowly, she came back into my life.
One day, she, Max, and I were in the kitchen—baking apple crisp, laughing. Nina was humming. Max was zesting a lemon like it was a lab experiment. I was measuring oats.
It felt so normal. And for once, normal felt like enough.
“This is perfect,” she said.
I smiled. “I’m glad you like it, my rose.”
I’m still her mother. That hasn’t changed. But now she knows the truth—and so do I.
I stayed with Richard out of fear. But I chose peace. I chose her.
And in doing so, I finally chose myself.